Of promises, reminisces and bus seats

 

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A seat on the bus is my solace
The road is a moving carpet
Moving me away from home
And I wish I could get off this ride

But this journey doesn’t end anytime soon
Just when you get accustomed 
To the slow pull and push of the wheels
And the creaking seats
It jerks to a stop
Or turns down an unseen alley
And you wonder where you’ll end up

The signs pass me by
Each one a reminder of how much further
My home is getting to be

Yet the wind on my face smells of promises
And whispers of wishes
Where the skyscrapers trap you in a vortex
Of power and cold hard cash
And the people bustle in a mechanical staccato

The power strides, the cigarette ash and the taxi doors
Opening and shutting
Ever so exciting and frightening
It begs the question:
Would the city swallow me up and spit me right out?
Or accept me as indifferently 
As a machine does a cog?

Yes the winds of change hits me in the face
Quite too literally
And the past tugs me hard
So that I know not which way to turn anymore.

Wrong side of the bed

 

Her feet slowly fall on the slabs
Cold, hard and unrelenting in their grey

She treads lightly
Afraid of making an impression
Or making anyone remember this moment
As the moment
She ran away

She should have faced the music
So abrasive and discordant
But music nonetheless
There was a rhythm to it
A hard vindictive beating
Drums.
Flashes.
Thunder.
Fire.

But her best just wasn’t good enough
The stories of courage she heard on the TV
were just stories
fairy tales of hope
But in the end all empty
And unrealistic
False promises

So her footsteps fall slowly on the slabs
The light of the lamps betray her
Yearning for the dark she tiptoes
But the old wrought iron watchtowers
on the street corners
All point accusing beams of light at her
But what cause do they have
To accuse her of any misdeed
When she so clearly was the one
Stuck on the wrong end of the bed?

Light

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Your eyes, they’re…
My god it’s bright
Dazzling
But softly
A gentle burnishing
Run over your skin with a feather brush
You’re floating
And your touch is light
It threatens to pull me up too
Feet leave the ground
And all I can do is
Look at your face
And your eyes, they’re…

I don’t think I’ve ever seen
Or heard
Such simplicity
I don’t call it beauty
You’re not pretentious or fake
A light patter of snow or small
Raindrops
Is enough for you to smile
Who cares for glitter or glamour?
Let them have their star-studded mirrors
And their hollow diamonds
What we have is precious
And
I don’t think I’ve ever seen Or Heard
Such simplicity

Dark

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It’s like lightning
When your eyes look at mine
A spark and a fizzle
The night’s lit up
The mad rush won’t die down
Electricity and brightness
Glazing over the heat
Touching our skin
Setting off impulses
Like lightning

And the darkness is not darkness
Anymore
We create our own light
From touch to touch
From gaze to gaze
For our souls are interlocked
In firm and pulsating embrace
Nerves tingling in the dark
But the darkness
Is not darkness

The die is cast

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We started
It was cold, dark and ever so secret
And we started

We all turned up that day
All of us looking forward to the rush
The rush of nail biting anticipation
The roiling feeling
Of ever present danger

It was a twisted game we played
A gamble
That left nothing to chance

But we all turned up anyway
Hooked on the feeling
Of victory and dread
Of winning and losing

We hid when we played
Far away from prying eyes
But close enough to be able to shout for help
Or simply remember who we were

We all sat around
And waited with eager eyes
For the die
Our breaths were short
And hands shivering in the warm

And the die was cast
We watched it tumble
In that moment nothing else mattered
The black and white was everything
The spots entranced us, bewitching

Until it came to rest
And looked up at one of us
Grinning in evil
And barely hidden glee

The spell broke then and we stood up
Shook the dust off our shoes and coats
And made haste chitchat

And when we left the doorway
Each of us looked back
The house was forbidding and dark
But we’d return anyway later

But not for some time
For the game was done and the die cast
And someone was going to die

And when they did, we’d all be back
Gambling again and again
Till we get it right.

Meth-heads and taxi cabs

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It’s past midnight

The bustling metropolis is no more quieter though
Yeah,
Look at the meth-heads traipsing by
But not just them and carefree birds like us
Birds?
TAXI!!!

Nope, not a call darling
Hey, you’re running empty
Let me fill ‘er up for you now.

Oh but isn’t it magical, here and now?
Who gives a damn for the cold?
This ain’t December
But you can have my coat

Yeah, 
Chivalry lives love
And not even this blessed bottle here
Can make me forget about your celestial beauty…
What?
You think I’m lying?

Have you seen the way your hair falls
and your eyes look sleepy
and bright and shiny and sleepy?
Have you seen how good you look in a sweater
hugging a hot mug of coffee?
And oh god your smile?

I know it’s a cliche but when you smile…
Damn that’s beautiful. Almost poetic in its simplicity 

But you have your complicated moments too

Oh forget all that though!
Forget your tantrums and drama and shit
Here we are, walking along
Amidst meth-heads and Taxi-cabs
Here we are.

That’s all there ever is. 
And that’s enough for me.

Imaginings

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Being crowned by a quivering hand
The gleaming gold traded for dull dry paper
A farce! A farce!
But the throne is true, the crowd attentive
Yet t the hand and the crown strike strange

Flying over the seabed now
My wings are dry and soaked
Is this water imagined and false?
But the fish swim true and seaweed wave
Only my wings are out of place

And now I am among the crowd
Applauding a false king
His crown is paper and a skeleton crowns him
But we applaud him nevertheless
For he is our king

And here I am swimming underneath the ocean
I am a fish!
But here comes a man with wings on his back
Wings that flap and drive him on under the sea
And somehow it looks alright. 

Scandalmonger

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The Scandalmonger is out tonight
He treads softly and watches quietly
He listens and peeks
The Scandalmonger is out tonight

Beware the Scandalmonger
He preys on the weak and poor
He shouts out and raises his voice
Beware the Scandalmonger

The Scandalmonger is out tonight
He’ll rouse the crowd into a frenzy
He’ll whisper lies and deceptions
The Scandalmonger is out tonight

Beware the Scandalmonger
He spreads a web of fear and hate
He thrives on lost causes and ignorant fear
Beware the Scandalmonger

The Scandalmonger is out tonight
He walks beside you as a friend or enemy
He talks to you as a friend or enemy
The Scandalmonger is out tonight

Beware the Scandalmonger
The Scandalmonger is out tonight

Warnings

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The sirens ring out messages of danger
“They will shoot you down”
Their warnings of hate cloud our world and shut us in
From the sun and the wind and air
It bids us close our doors
Not a single soul let in

“Trust No One”
The cold speakers want us to isolate
Live alone and die alone
We must not trust our friends, family
Or even ourselves

“Join in. Earn your glory”
Then a new warning.
Why hide from the pointless murder?
Embrace it. 
Hold another man’s life in your hands and feel
The pleasure it ripping it away

“Protect your country”
And most people agree.
But you see,
If we were being attacked, god forbid
I would join in a heartbeat
But when we are taking the fight to a poor struggling victim
Killing them in their cradles and birth-beds
Tearing away tomorrow’s children from their parents
Dropping bomb after bomb on their religion
Decimating their leaders
Destroying their ideals
All for our gain. 
All for our riches.
That’s why I don’t want to join in.

So ring out your messages.
Fill the people with causeless fear and paranoia
Reel us back to the dark ages
But not me
I know what you’re doing
And I will not participate.
Your crimes will be on your head
And my crimes, whatever they maybe, will be on mine.

Fifty!

This is a self-celebration because I just passed 50 posts. The previous post was the 50th by the way so I’m not cheating. Yes. FIFTY!
Never thought I could stick to wordpress for so long but it’s all thanks to my followers and the readers and commenters :)
(Even though I sounded there for a moment like a really popular writer, I’m not.)

Thank you for sticking with my writing and there’s more coming :)